She Came Calling

9.21.17, Thursday Some days our babies come calling.  Mine did today.  It’s been a tender time as I’ve been feeling sad, overwhelmed, and a bit disconnected from life.  I’m very aware that Acacia’s 8th anniversary dates of her birth and death are next week – September...

Pregnancy After Loss – Why Would I Leave the House?!

I can vaguely remember my own pregnancy after loss (PAL) experience.  Vaguely because perhaps some things are too hard to remember too closely.  And because I also had a lot of support during and after my PAL.  It was a time of radical self-care.  Something I’m not...

Pregnancy After Loss – a reflection from my own experience

When I was pregnant with my second daughter, I wrote a blog called Dot’s Diner.   Dot was the nickname I gave to my little baby girl while I was pregnant.  Today I’m sharing an excerpt from that blog.  Currently I’m preparing to lead a Pregnancy After Loss Women’s...

Parenting After A Loss – The Little Things

As I reflect on parenting after a loss, it seems obvious that I’ll never know what kind of parent I would be if Acacia had not died. Sometimes I wonder about this, but mostly I experience it as a part of my parenting story.  Sometimes I wonder if I’d be less anxious,...

Here She Is – Remembering My Daughter’s Anniversary

As Acacia’s 7th anniversary approaches in September, I often feel her closest in August. Here She Is – by Shelly King I see you everywhere my love. Every flower, every tree, every blade of grass. I miss you everywhere, my love. Every birthday, every holiday,...

Time Heals All Wounds

Time heals all wounds. That’s a doozy, huh?!  In the past, it stirred up all of my doubts, anxieties, and fears.  For example, my mind did something like this, “really?  Time heals ALL wounds?  Even dead babies?  Then what’s wrong with me?  I don’t feel better yet. ...

Father’s Day and Baby Loss – Remembering Dad

Another family holiday upon us.  Father’s Day.  If you identify with the commercialized version of this holiday, the man or men in your life will be grilling, playing golf, fishing and being lazy and unhelpful.  I don’t know about you, but those...

Sometimes I Just Miss Her

Hi dear reader.  I wonder where this blog post finds you today?  I’d say I hope you’re doing well, and sincerely I do, AND, if you’re not doing well – I welcome any and all emotional states!  When you’ve lost your baby, whether it’s...